In this rational world, we are often fed the illusion that everything is explainable. Frequently, we are asked to give reasons for our thoughts and actions as if logic should underpin everything that we say or do. But in fact reason does not govern the entire panoply of life. Some things are driven purely by feeling and may in fact be illogical.
I am an atheist but in the end I have to admit that this standpoint is down to feeling. Even if I wanted to become a churchgoer or a born again Christian it would be impossible. Sure I could fake it but inside me my atheistic feelings would still be strong, telling me that my sudden conversion was but a charade and that I was right all along - there is no God
Last night, down at our local pub, I watched my beloved Hull City beat Wolverhampton Wanderers with a free kick in injury time. I yelped with delight and raised my arms and for a moment the tap room went quiet. Perhaps, momentarily, they all thought that someone had been assaulted. But if either Sheffield Wednesday or Sheffield United had scored that last minute goal, half the pub would have been rocking with instant joy. Long ago I tried to support Sheffield's big teams but the feeling was never there. When they scored there were never those moments of pure exhilaration that Hull City have given me through the years. It's down to feeling.
Happiness is the state that everyone seeks day by day and year by year. Happiness is much nicer than unhappiness or that limbo state where you feel nothing at all. But you cannot just switch happiness on. It comes and goes and though you might try to hang on to it when you have got it, happiness is as slippery as a fish. It is easy to lose for it is also the child of feeling.
In life you meet optimists and pessimists - the glass half full and the glass half empty people. But nobody chooses to be one or the other. We cannot help our dispositions or change them. As in love and hatred and preferences and allegiances, we are all the hostages of feeling. Even when nagging voices inside us or the persuasive efforts of friends or family try to turn us, it is feeling and not logic that drives so many strands of these lives we are living. And I apologise if you feel that I am stating the bleeding obvious...